I’m trying again

I got lost

I feel stuck.
I feel empty.
I feel stressed.

This is what I wrote the last time I came here, what I was feeling through my core. I think the worst thing was feeling trapped in a cage, screaming at the top of my lungs and feeling like I was drowning at the same time.

Being empty sucks, I’m sure you know that as much as I do. But being stuck is maybe worst , because you WANT to move forward, but the external world is actually blocking you this time, and not just yourself. This feels like loosing our freedom of being.

To me, it feels like I am ordred to comform, to fit in the mold our societies like to place us in. But I don’t want to. I hate it.

The mantra ‘YOLO’ (You Only Live Once) has become a joke, used sarcastically. But in the end, it’s still the truth.

So why should I be forced to live a life that doesn’t fit my beliefs?

I live in a ‘free’ country. So why should I censor myself when I have to possibility to live according to my values ?

I think it’s finally time again to stop complaining and start doing.